i wish you would love me...

i just saw something that i shouldn't see just now...then, somebody forwarded me this 'poem' below, just enough to answer some of the questions that are running in my minds.... i feel like I am losing her, dunno why...

"Bila kita jatuh cinta pada seseorang,
jangan menyiksa diri dengan menganggap bahawa cinta kita tak diterima.

Cinta itu tak pernah ditolak kerana,
setiap insan memerlukan, menginginkan untuk dicintai.

Wujudkan cinta itu dengan memberikan sesuatu bukan mengharap harap akan sesuatu sebab,
apa yang diberikan kerana cinta selalu datang pada hati kita disaat itu juga.

Kebahagiaan memberi jauh lebih sempurna daripada kebahagiaan kerana menerima.


Tapi…


lain bila kita menginginkan sesuatu yang kita cintai.

Keinginan itulah yang memberikan pahit pahit yang menghiris dada…

Jangan menyiksa diri dengan menginginkan sesuatu….

Jangan siakan cinta dengan beban yang berat mengharap mampu dipikul bahu.

Keinginan memiliki mungkin tak kesampaian…


Tapi…


Percayalah pada diri…

Selalunya cinta yang kita berikan seadanya

Takkan pernah bertepuk sebelah tangan.."

*perempuan yg baik utk lelaki yg baik...

she is leaving us...

esok hari last kak yana kt dunny.huhu
bru pasan, xde gmbr aku ngan kak yana, kalao x dh bleh kt sini.
pape pn, all d best, slamat maju jaya.
blk ni, kalau g trgganu, sy g lawat akak ek, blnje kopok lekor skali :D

we'll be missing u.
pape pn, thnks sbb ajar sy buat cucur sume.
akan sy praktikkan ilmu2 buat cucur tu.huhu
jgn rindu cucur jagung sy dh le, limited edition tuuu.
hanya org2 yg tertntu je yg dpt mkn cucur jagung limited edition summer version.

xlupa juga, nk mengucapkan slamat hr raya, maaf zahir batin

kalau ko tak boleh tlg aku, aku pn malas nk tlg ko

paham?

3rd Demo: Malaysian Night At Toroa International House [cancelled]

We got invitation to perform Silat at the above event on 27th of September 2009.
We all are very busy with revision as we only got few weeks before our final exams. What a pain…

But, whatever it is, we are gonna do our best for the demo. The space/area provided for the demo is also very limited and small. To give you an idea how small it is, only two persons can do Pecahan Tapak 10 or Golongan 10 at a time in that area (-_-)”

we are going to do the exact same thing we did for International Cultural night but only 2 person are doing it at a time. Plus, we'll add slow motion movements for the combat. Hope they'll like it.
I am glad that I already got permission from Cikgu Wan ahmad Fauzi to do this demo (^^,)v

i am vry busy this time, still have to take care of tomorrow's event, "Hari Keluarga", organised by OUPERSADA, UMNO and SARJANA. *sigh....


*update: there will be no demo since it clashes with Otago Raya Open House 2009 (-__-)"

i am very3 creative you know

i can do thousands of things when i should be studying for final.

i am so creative, ain't i?

gmbr lawa

gmbr dpt dr blog oh!cun
huhu

I missed two Gundam from trademe (-_-)"

This year alone, I missed two MG gundam kits at a bargain at trademe (-_-)”
Their prices were cheaper than in Malaysia if I convert the price to RM.
Those two are Unicorn Gundam Ver. and Ka MG Wing Gundam ver. Ka.

1.Unicorn Gundam Ver. Ka
Price: NZD 70.00 (
RRP in Malaysia: RM 200
Reason why I missed is because I just bought Crossbone Gundam Full Cloth and I did not have spare money to spend on this one.
Besides, I need money for the trip during autumn break.



I really like this kit because it can change shape or can transform in to destroy mode. It is like you have two gundam instead of one for that price.
But then, based on reviews on Youtube, this the articulation of this kit is a bit poor as compared to other MG’s to compensate for the transformation. But still, I like the colour, very clean and pure. The design also quite interesting.

2. MG Wing Gundam ver. Ka.
Buy Now Price: NZD 80 (
RRP in Msia: RM 180
It sounds like it is cheaper in Msia, yes it is. But I want it here, in NZ, not Msia. That means, if I were to ship it from Msia, the total cost for this kit will be more than NZD 80, right?


I missed this kit because I waited too long. The reserve price was NZD 70, but the Buy Now price is NZD 80. In order to buy it for NZD 70, I waited until the end of the auction. But then, some Kiwi bought it using Buy Now. Arrghhh…this world is not fair :P
I’ve watched the reviews of this kits on Youtube and it said this kit is very stable since the wings are not heavy as compared to my Strike Freedom.
Besides, the colour scheme for this kit also very nice, I really like it. Plus, the decals are very attractive (bonus pint for this kit).
I think the ‘hikmah’ for these incident is that I can save my money, and bring it to my home country, convert it, and spend it. I’ll get more value of NZD if I convert it into RM :P
Besides, I got new alternative to get Gundams in cheaper way, direct from Japan (avoid middle man in this case). So, no regret for this. Huhu (^^,)v

Gayong in New Zealand?

honestly, i would prefer to write in Malay since it is easier for me to express all my thoughts and feelings in words. but then, not all people can read Malay though (-_-)" so i have to write in English (what a pain.. :P )
but still, i'll write in Malay or even use 'Rojak languange' (mixed between english n Malay) so that i can put my opinion in more efficient way (is it?).

the existence of Gayong in NZ?
as i said in previous entry, gayong can be practiced everywhere , even in toilet, or before you go to bed.
so, how about in NZ?
of course-lah can practice gayong what :P
just find a good place, wear your silat uniform, 'buka gelanggang' and then practice as usual.

quoted from http://narapatinantaboga.blogspot.com/:
Gayong does exist in New Zealand. The reality is that Gayong exists everywhere, as long as there is Anak Gayong, there is the Gelanggang.

just to respond to that:
in NZ, particularly in Dunedin, there is no Gayong Guru or trained 'Jurulatih'.
so, it is a bit hard for us, anak-anak gayong here to practice without a proper trainer, however, we still need to practise, otherwise we will forget everything we learnt since Gayong is about skill.

so, i gather all my friends who learnt gayong back in Malaysia and discussed with them about the idea of practising together, so that we can exchange knowledge and things that we know about Gayong. eventually, there were 7 of us boys who really want to to this, including me. Not forget to mention, we have a post-grad sister here who posses 3rd degree red belt in PSSGM under cikgu Rasol Abd. Ghani who is willing to help us with our training. she also got certificate for "Pembantu Jurulatih", so it is easier for us to refer to is we got any problem later on.

the seven of us are:
1. chek det
2. Mohd Faizal
3. Tengku Azran
4. Imran
5. Farrael
6. Bukhari
7. farhan
last time, Wado and Afif also used to train with us.

Us, in Dance Studio, Club and Soc's building.

again, since we do not have any trainer, i lead this gelanggang for the meantime.

Is it illegal to practice gayong in group in overseas?
i am not really sure about this matter. but i think we should inform our Gurus first, ask for their permission. Then, try contact Federal Gayong and tell them about establishing new gelanggang in overseas. After that, if everything is fine then only we can practise as usual. the next steps are quite complicated and i do not wish to discussed it here now.

there are a few reasons for this:
-so that Federal Gayong is aware of our activities
-in case of anything happens, we are in safe side since our gelanggang is registered
-to avoid speculation since we Muslims practicing martial arts in black uniform would make people around us think bad about us.

PSSGNZ???
there was one fella who asked me to be the founder of Pertubuhan Silat Seni Gayong New Zealand (PSSGNZ). For me, there is so such thing as PSSGNZ.
personally, i do not want to be anybody in Gayong because i got other duties to fulfill i am just an ordinary anak gayong who study in NZ. if only we got a gelanggang here, it is PSSGM gelanggang NZ/Dunedin :)
ask somebody else to establish PSSGNZ.hehe

do i have the permission to practice Gayong in NZ?
yes i do, but not the official one (written permission).
i asked all my Gurus and they all gave me permission, except one guru since he did not understand the purpose of this gelanggang and also other issue.
more importantly, i got 'restu' from Cikgu Wan Ahmad Fauzi bin Wan Hussain, the Supreme Trustree, Heir of PSSGM.
at first i sent an email to him about issue of establishing gelanggang here so that my friends and I can practice gayong legally. few months after, i called him myself to discuss with him few matters. so far, he is very kind to me and gave advices and tips to practice gayong overseas. he even offered me to do an intensive course of national syllabus of PSSGM in his house at Bangi. I am very glad and appreciate it :)

last but not least, i would like to stress that the purpose of this gelanggang is to gather all 'anak-anak gayong' in New Zealand and practice together, not more than that. I welcome anybody who have any question or issues that you want to tell/discuss with me, I am open in this matter.

salam ramadhan

Gayong dari perspektif penulis

salam ramadhan semua.



Gayong?
gayong merupakan permainan panglima-panglima melayu yang mana sekiranya kita selalu amalkan dan train, akn menjadi seperti darah daging kita atau 'second nature'.
bila dh jadi sedarah sedaging, ke mana kita pergi sekali pn, gayong tetap bersama kita.

permainan gayong sangat-sangat flexible. even kalau kita duduk atas kerusi sekali pn, kita masih boleh bergayong. xpercaya? boleh cuba sendiri.

Kuda-kuda dalam gayong
org sering berkata, boring la blaja silat, kena kuda-kuda la, ape la..
tidak dinafikan permainan gayong ni memang memerlukan kekuda, tp seperti yg dikatakan, gayong ini sgt2 flexible.
kalau xnk berkuda2 pn x jadi masalah, cumanya posisi tidak stabil dan mudah dijatuhkan.
dalam senario sebenar, kalau bergaduh, kuda-kuda selalunya x dipakai, tetapi ianya terjadi dengan sendirinya sebab koordinasi badan menyebabkan kita ingin merendahkan pusat graviti badan.

gayong di mana-mana
saidina Ali berkata yg maksudnya " aku tidak menginginkan harta kerana aku terpaksa bimbang dan bersusah payah menjaganya. aku inginkan ilmu kerana ilmu akan menjaga aku"
begitu juga perihalnya dengan gayong/ silat ini. ke mana sahaja kita pergi, gayong akan bersama kita. even di dalam tandas sekali pn, dengan ilmu yg kita ada, akan dpt menjaga diri kita sekiranya kita dalam kesusahan/diancam.

sekadar ini sahaja buat entry ni. entry ini menjadi muqaddimah kepada entry selepas ini.